Fulfilling His Promise by Libby Johnson

“I cry out to God Most High, to God who will fulfill his purpose for me.” Psalm 57:2 NLT

One of the most important things God has taught me in the last year is how to be honest. And not just “don’t tell lies” honest, but “be transparent about how you’re doing” honest. The latter is significantly less comfortable and much harder to carry out. Ironically, Christians should be the most honest people, and yet I find it so difficult to unearth my struggles and feelings, instead of beaming at people and declaring that I am just fine, thank you very much.

So, here’s me being honest: I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up and I really struggle to discern what my specific calling is.

I grew up with the misconceived notion that pastors and church leaders have a perfect relationship with Jesus, but I’m here to tell you that the lows come too–the wondering, the questioning, the doubting. The question I’m struggling with lately is “God, what is my purpose? What is my calling?” Frederick Buechner says, “The place God calls you to is the place where your deep gladness and the world’s deep hunger meet.” But, what if you have more than one deep gladness? Do you have anything to say about that, Buechner?

So, what is one to do? Take the next step in faith, believing and trusting that God will fulfill his purpose for you. A wise friend once told me that life isn’t a hundred question test, with Jesus hovering over your shoulder waiting for you to figure out the right answers. Rather, it’s an adventure and practice in loving God and others, with Jesus walking right beside you. So cry out to God Most High today, believing that he will fulfill his purpose for you.